Self Confidence Again!

thispost is related to the self confidence thang.

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yes i really do. i've been thinking a lot about this lately. i have the perfect subject,i have the lines. but i dont have confidence. all the critisism... dislikers... thumbs down-ers... douchebaggy friends. AND i have a weird voice when in camera. :I now i know that i cant say SSSSS properly. any advice?? haihhhh.....

Self Confidence

This will be my first post. in malay! :D note: i gonna use the work AKU

Self Confidence. biase dengar sudahhh! aku ni salah satu mangsenye -.-' aku ni sah tkde self confidence langsong. sikit2 tu ada laa tapi lainnye semua takot, risau.... heh.... ade bnyk kategorei self confidence aku nih

PERTAMA- RUPA

1) tengok profile picture facebook member2 semua cantik2. aku pulak biase... normal... bole2 je laa... diorang kalau buat muka cute memang menjadi. muka skema ngan blur pon boleh jadi cute... -.-' AJAIBB. heh... aku ni pon jeles la jugak tgok bnyk org komen cute lah... smart lah... aku punya?? KOSONG. nak buat muke cute tu... memang nak. tapi tak CONFIDENT. takut orang kritik! dah la kawan aku banyak yang jenis kritik ngan picky sikit. so muka2 'cute' aku tu hanya tersimpan dalam IPod... takde sapa sudi tgok :') memang takde confidence kalau nk post gmbar diri! nanti org sedap2 kate gedik!

2) Tengok kawan... semuanye cantik... slim, molek, gebu, cun, hensem and bak kata Azib, GORGEOUS. so bila tengok diri... heh mula lah! lengan berlemak! kaki berlemak! kesan luka banyak! gemuk! gigi teruk! sebenarnye... dulu2 tak kisah pon. tapi bila masok darjah 6 and tingkatan 1 lain jadinye. lelaki dah mulut laser! pernah lah jugak satu budak india ni (nama secret: KANAN) kanan ni dulu2 masa drjah 6 duduk depan aku. pergh mulut semacam! satu hari ni, aku marah lah dye. pastu sedap2 balas dgan ejekan. mentang2lah aku seorang je kat skolah tu yang pakai braces, nak ejek2! dye pernah ejek gigi arnab, rongak, bnyk lagi lah.... masetu, ade la 'bodygaurd' aku yang ddk sebelah aku ni (nama secret: MARY DJAMEELAH) marydjameelah ni baik gile. protective lah jugak! tapi mase dye ejek tu, mary tu tengah baran ngan dye, tanpa disedari.... aq kat tepi tu tunduk sambil menangis je lah! Ye... aku darjah enam nangis kat skola! pastu.... dye pon pernah kate a gemok lahhh...lalalala.... sejak tu, aku xde self confidence abt my looks... THANKS A LOT KANAN!

KEDUA- PELAJARAN

sah bile belajar xde confidence! ade tu ade laaa... tapi... dengar je lah! -.-'

dah masuk KRK ni... lain cerita! semua TOP TOP gile! dulu... aku slalu top ten... sekarang? HMPH! top 20! so bile nak study exam tu mulalah otak aku tuh! "takkan punye aq top 10" "pergh! AFIQAH ngan taufik HIDAYAT tu pandai sangat! unbeatable! mcm lah aq boleh pass diorang! nak je campak ke asrama!" haihhh.... kalau kumpul semua, boleh jadi novel! tak tipu. bile study tu aku xde confidence la... knowing people are better!

So tu lah al kisahnya.....

ASSALAMUALAIKUM! kalau xjawab dosa, kalau jawab sayang! ;D

Youth Leadership Programme (part 2)

I got 'CHAMPION' for public speaking show case under 15 :)

Thanks Mr. Gerald Quinten for bringing us here :D

'photographer and the tall guy'

YLP Trip!!!!

happiness! WOOOO (Seraphina and half of Nur)

Our seats? economy clas??? no no no ;D

PRIME MINISTER IS STARRING INTO MY SOUL (Jasreezal)

Business class???  nahhh... not there yet

May be the happiest girl alive O.O (Merlyn)

'supporters' of  Mr. PM. (reezal, Daniswari, Seraphina, Paulita, Merlyn, Nicholas PHANG, Nur's arm)

Enjoyin da life (Joel)

That's right people! FIRST CLASS! we be sittin here.

LIKABOSS!!! (Theeban)

IT'S MOVING!!!!! THE FREAKIN CHAIR IS MOVING!!!!

yep ah... just spot checking some stuff (pillow)

O.O may your soul tremble!

We landed. in Malaysian Airlines Academy! xD up there is our 'classroom'

PM ownes this MODEL plane

the last glimpse :/



IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUN!!!! HOPE WE MEET AGAIN!!!!

Youth Leadership Programme

1st - 3rd June (Malaysian Airlines Academy)- I went to the Youtuh Leadership Programme and I am a future TOASTMASTER. two words. PURE. and AWESOMENESS.

THEEBAN!!!

MERLYN!!!

DANISWARII~

YLP

LONGGGGGG Briefing

I call it.... the Retarded Strawfrancisco Bridge

team red! xD

Mr. Emil Anthony giving us 'nasihat'

Lunch, as you can see is awesome

Iman Adira :D

Seraphina Valerie Fernandez! (awesome name! T.T)

what the guys do... we girls shall never know O.O

Nicholas WONG's derp face

mini conference.

i LOLed

team yellow's 'bridge'

Mr, Bernard on GESTURES

come here to stalk us. :)

I'LL UPLOAD MORE PICTURES SOON! PROMISES!!